Wednesday 31 March 2010

Pressure with a side of anxiety!

I wise man once said "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have" And this has become very true of me...
I am however sensing a anxiety driven breakdown some time in the next few months as I'm faced with the question 'what should I do next' and know matter how much study I seem to put in I still can not come up with the Answer.

University...? and if yes then what will I study? Education? Psychology? Nutrition? Business? all these things I'm interested in but If I chose to pursue all, would have a HEX debt more than I could ever imagine to pay off in my entire professional career.


More Travel...? I have been bitten by 'the bug' big time, but I'm not sure whether going travelling again would be the right decision or if it is better left to after I have a degree. If I do decide more travel is the way to go then where do I base myself? back in Europe as that is where my heart is, or try somewhere new like Canada or South America?


Or alternatively to all this stay in Port at La Vive Classique another year. I am in love with my job here, and I am saving a lot of money living rent free and having no real outlet to splurge money on. I could practically pay for university after another year here or a really amazing trip around the world!!


So there it is... the decision I need to make to define the rest of my life...
Help Me!
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Happy Easter..

As of tomorrow at 11am I'm on Holiday for 10 days :-D
VERY HAPPY ABOUT THIS...

That is all...

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An Easter Surprise!

This Easter long weekend for me equals the first time I'll be seeing Dave since I cut off all contact with him 2 years ago.
It is also the weekend my best guy-friend is coming home from his awful job in Central Coast...
For those of you playing at home (cutting a LONG story short) Simon HATES David...

& Port Macquarie is a SMALL town

There is going to be at least one moment of awkwardness throughout this wonderful chocolate filled weekend.

I am NOT looking forward to this :-(

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Sunday 21 March 2010

To dance is to dream!

Love my students at the moment...

They are working hard for me and I just LOVE my job!!

I wish I could display them all but I'll have to resort to just a few of my favorites

Tynan...

Just look at his ELEVATION

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Emily and Mikaylah...
Beautiful technique, energy and dedication

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Chenaye...

Do I really need to explain why I adore her?

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I'm getting excited for our first Eisteddfod in May...

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Shae...
This girl has a beautiful quality of movement and a beautiful personality

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Being back in the Eisteddfod world has reminded me that I'm an incredibly competitive person...

I'm not a "highly commended" type of girl.

I'm pushing the kids so hard, I just really hope it pays off!

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Good Luck my beauties...

Monday 15 March 2010

Miss Bradshaw

Here are some of my favorite Carrie words of wisdom, as I'm not inspired enough at the moment to come up with my own thoughts
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“Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”
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“When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”
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“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away”
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Sunday 14 March 2010

Burdens...

A lecturer when explaining stress management to an audience,

Raised a glass of water and asked

'How heavy is this glass of water?'



Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g..



The lecturer replied, 'The absolute weight doesn't matter.

It depends on how long you try to hold it.

If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem..

If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm.

If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance.

In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the
heavier
it becomes.'



He continued,

'And that's the way it is with stress management.

If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later,

As the burden becomes increasingly heavy,

We won't be able to carry on. '



'As with the glass of water,

You have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it
again..
When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden.'

'So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down.
Don't
carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow.



Whatever burdens you're carrying now,

Let them down for a moment if you can.'

So, my friend, Put down anything that may be a burden to you right
now.
Don't pick it up again until after you've rested a while.
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Breakthrough!!

Dave called
First time I've heard his voice in 2 years
Spoke on the phone for 2 hours (lucky we are both on the 3 network!)
It was fun
We joked
and laughed
and spoke honestly for the first time since we broke up
and for the first time after he hung up I didn't have butterflies in my stomach
and I didn't want to call him straight back!
can this be for real?
Can we finally be friends?
JUST FRIENDS!!!
NO BENEFITS!!
could be nice?
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Thursday 11 March 2010

Avril Lavigne

On the whole I don't really like her or her music but after watching and interview of her on Foxtel today have come to notice she's rather good looking... What do you think?
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Tuesday 9 March 2010

anyone know where I could find a good day?

I'm having a tough time at the moment...
Lucky I have One Tree Hill to get me through...

Lucas: There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back ...
I think I turned around and went back?

Lucas: There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path? Will others tell you who you are or will you label yourself? Will you be haunted by your choice or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
I'm trying hard not to give up... old me wouldn't have...

Lucas: Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big Plans. To find your perfect match, the one who completes you. But as you get older you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made where simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward you want to believe you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe you're leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.
I don't want my kids to read fairy tales... gives you false hope... stupid fucking Cinderella and the rest of them