you will be missed...

Dont let love bring you down, dont chase something that u no deep down in your heart is over, everything happens for a reason even if it leaves you broken hearted. The most important relationship you have is the one with yourself, so do what you gotta do so you can be what you want to be.

For my BFF...

Food for thought?

Just a paragraph from the book I'm reading:

I do know these drugs made my misery feel less catastrophic. So I'm Grateful for that. But I'm deeply ambivalent about mood-altering medications. I'm awed by their power, but concerned by their prevalence. I think they need to be prescribed and used with much more restraint in this country, and NEVER without the parallel treatment of psychological counseling.

Those pills might have saved my life, but they did so only in conjunction with about twenty other efforts I was making simultaneously during that same period to rescue myself.

HEAVEN...

Pajamas...

Face mask...

Chocolate...

A pot of coffee...

& Desperate Housewives...

What better way to spend a cold rainy night?

shhhhh.... don't tell anyone!

I'm secretly really excited to be coming home...

This last month I've really started to miss people...

ANNEKA, MY MUM, MY DAD, MY BROTHER, MY COUSINS, CARLY, ELISSA....

see you all soon!

L

O

V

E...

Walking in a winter wonderland...

8 sleeps until I'm leaving for a month of intense European discovery and hopefully also a month of personal discovery...

I'm flying solo... It's an amazing feeling yet terrifying at the same time.

The trip I'm doing is called "Winter Wanderer" even the name of it gets me excited!

The entire trip is by bus and for the whole month you are with the same bus load of people. This time last year I would have cringed at the thought of having to meet and socialize with 40 strangers for a whole month but now (especially due to recent events and heartbreak) I can't wait!

I'm not going to lie, I am totally going to pack my slutty self into my suitcase coz this is a once in a life time opportunity and I don't want to look back years from now wishing I had of just chilled out and been more promiscuous. I'm letting down all my guards for the entirety of this trip. I'm going to eat what I want, drink what I want, buy what I want and sleep with who I want and that my friends is that!

so in writing here is the "Winter Wanderer"

Paris

Lucerne

Lyon

Barcelona

Nice

Monaco

Florence

Tuscany

Pisa

Rome

Vatican City

Venice

Vienna

Munich

Prague

Berlin &.....

Amsterdam!!!

I've had the most AMAZING and LIFE CHANGING year of my life living in beautiful London...

I can't think of a better way to finish off!....

Will keep you posted...

Ciao x

say please...

Please please please
No apologies
At best they buy you time
Until you next step out of line...

London's High Streets...

going shopping when you're upset = bad things!!!!
I shouldn't be spending money right now...
I am the proud new owner of some very pretty shoes though...

Promise...

What you think about this?
I been holding it in now I'm letting it flow
What you think about this?
I'm gonna do my own thing yeah I'm flying solo so
Don't tell me how its gonna be
On my own
And the thing of it is
There's nothing round here that I'm gonna miss
Cause you're holding me down
I just wanna fly
There comes a time when I gotta say goodbye
To the life that you see me in
Here's where I begin

And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me

There's a voice in my head
Telling me come on, come on, move on
There's a voice in my head
Telling me I know my right from wrong
They say what doesn't kill you can
Make you strong
Now I know what it means
You can try to bend but you ain't breakin my dreams
I'll be making mistakes
Comin up at a loss
I'll be tumbling down
But Like MC shake it off
I'll stay cool cause I know who's boss
Of me, myself, and I

And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me

I'll keep movin even when the beat is gone (I will)
I'll keep doin what i got to do to carry on (I will)
So don't hold me down cause i'm gonna fly
and the time has come and gotta say goodbye
To the life that you see me in
Here's where I begin

And I promise myself
I ain't nobody's, I just wanna be free
And I promise myself
Even though it don't always come easy
Gonna learn from my pain
Never explain
Do it my way, that's what I say
Promise myself
I'm the only one who will believe me....