I'm not saying my life is perfect and by no means will it ever be, and anyone out there who thinks there is a person on this planet who doesn't have at least one thing about there life that makes them want to be someone else for a day then you are kidding yourself, but I have learnt to take the shit that life throws me, except it and not let it drown the magic of the fact I'm alive.
Sometimes I forget to remember that I get this shot at life once. I don't believe in Heaven or Hell and I don't believe in reincarnation but I do believe that your soul never dies, and when that day comes that my soul is floating around wherever souls float I want it to be happy, I don't want it to look back at earth watching people making the most of their lives wishing I had of done things differently.
A not so great friend of mine told me over and over again that "happiness is a choice" and every time she said it to me I literally wanted to kick or skinny blonde ass so far into the future I would never see her again, until one day I realized she wasn't just telling me to wake up & flick the happy switch on, she was telling me that happiness is a choice if you choose to work hard for it. You need to build the strength to not let bullshit rip you apart, you need to learn to be your own biggest fan so when it feels like everyone else hates you, you still have yourself, and you need to know that you can always start over, nothing has to follow you around unless you let it...
I had to move all the way to the other side of the world to figure all this out, away from all my friends and my family, and I missed them all every single day. I'm coming home soon and my time away was so worth it because when I get back I really am going to start over and from now on, I wont waste another minute!
Reading this makes me miss you so much!
ReplyDeleteI'll try to write back to your inbox soon, thinking of you always xo